I know I am here on a mission from God and I know that I can only do good work with clean hands. Not that I am so far out of my integrity, and.....any amount, no matter how "small," makes a difference.

Thank you for being you, a woman I look up to. Thank you for embodying integrity. Thank you for reminding me of what my soul knows. 

I feel a sense of "freedom" that is beyond mind, and I find my brain sometimes scrambling to find the hooks it used to hang its hat on, as it were. Interesting feeling. 

I am guided to choose wisely when needed, in matters concerning my son, until he is ready and able to do so himself.

It helps me see why and how I’ve have pushback and resistance so often when “trying to help”.  Now, instead, I can reference/memorize some of these points and hopefully see better results immediately.

This is just to say how I'm thrilled to be on this Journey. What a relief, in particular,  to own steps to lead people to their own conclusions. I've 'helped' people all my life and can see how that point has been my huge stumbling block, giving advice. I've taken the driver's seat, so wrong as it never works. 

Beth modelled the depths of her coaching ability by demonstrating how she reads at the feeling level, amazing! It encourages me to nurture the power of empathy within myself to better serve my clients. Thank you, Beth!  

As a child of alcoholic parents, I was parentified and essentially groomed to be the caretaker of my entire family from the age of about 5 years old onwards .

It was a pathway that continued for most of my life and contained the seeds of my near destruction by being over giving, over responsible over achieving and hyper agreeable.

The first big wake up that I was heading towards destruction was a near death experience from my heart being literally burnout. It made me so ill that I had no choice but to withdraw from the world including vocationally and try to build myself up again. I literally was like the walking dead.

Finally, after enormous amounts of hard work, I returned to a place I was proud of, being self sufficient and with a thriving self employed practice helping people. I was achieving again…….I was winning.

Guess what, it all collapsed again and this time it was even worse, this time I couldn’t see a way out of this pattern. I become disillusioned and angry at God for taking things away from me ….yet again…..I couldn’t understand why I was here again…..especially when I worked so hard and here I am with nothing to show for the entirety of my life why why oh why…….

Then I prayed for help, despite blaming God, as I knew I couldn’t keep pushing this boulder up a hill anymore, I was burnt out and exhausted and moving into that death space again. I really needed help.

The answer came to me in the form of Beth Martens and her Archetypal and De Programming work and specifically the information contained within the Nurturer Archetype.

It was like a ‘bolt from the heavens’ when I worked with this material. I could see where I was getting stuck having not been taught boundaries as a child and instead had been groomed to give my all to another, to love and care for those in pain, even up to the point of death.

As an empath and highly sensitive person, this was torture to my very soul to swing from giving too much, losing myself, burning out and then giving nothing as I recovered. This was pure crazing making.

Being part of Beth’s coaching, courses, and Journey Code Training was some of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. They helped me deprogram from the grooming and find a much healthier way to really love, care and truly be service to others which does not include harming myself through neglect.

I now have and maintained an incredibly busy and thriving practice and best of all, I have finally learnt what boundaries are at 55 years of age. Beth taught me, what my parents could not and I thank her from the bottom of my heart for this massive gift of freedom. Thank you Beth for being you ❤️

I realized that a component to the activation of the Nurturer shadow in me was an unawareness of my motivations. Programming kept me in the trap of presuming that all helping or offers to help were a “good” thing. Nope. My breakthrough (and liberation) came with the simple question: What kind of help really helps? Without a clear answer within myself, and one for each instance, the shadow side of the nurturer, hubris, showed up. Using the gift side of the archetype, there is an awareness that it’s the allowing of God to work through me, and not on my timing or my personal needs. And that requires of me my ongoing listening-to and responding-to that “still, small voice.” (Bonus: it also benefits other aspects of my life.)